You, me and C.S Lewis ..!

C.S Lewis once said “To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket- safe, dark, motionless, airless--it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable.”

In his book “A grief observed” where he mourns the loss of his beloved wife, it is stated in the beginning that C.S Lewis did not find attractiveness in women, but one day late in his life he met his wife, she was a writer, a poet, and a thinker as well … He fell in love … But life is not that merciful and good, life is cruel and savage … She had cancer, imagine back in these days what it meant, for it now with all the medical advancements and some success against the fight for life, still cancer means death …

But he knew he found the love, he found the one … Both decided to join each other into one life, entwined … He knew they don’t have a life time ahead … But he knew that the few he got is worth of a life time … He knew the challenges, the nights of pain and morphine will come … dreadful nights where the shadows of death hover around the house … He knew every minute will pass by will be taken from the very few he got … Yet still he believed that these moments are worth of a life time…

At first I wondered to his reaction to her death … I wanted to tell him “come on, you knew she had cancer” … But then he said “ Love is not affectionate feeling, but a steady wish for the loved person's ultimate good as far as it can be obtained” … It is hope that it will never end … He mourned her loss deeply, he shouted, he cried, he questioned God, he asked and wondered … And he wrote that most amazing and healing book … he said “We were promised sufferings. They were part of the program. We were even told, ''Blessed are they that mourn.'' , and he also said “God, who foresaw your tribulation, has specially armed you to go through it, not without pain but without stain”

I don’t know if we will be able to join one life some day … But I want to tell you that I acknowledge the challenges of that entwinement … yet I chose to enjoy that little time … But I know one thing for sure, whether we joined or not, we will always go to back to where we started together in my first post when being in love is not the point, we will always be close, we will always help and carry each other, we will always infiltrate happiness in each other lives, and we will always click!!