Promises tweaked ..!!

I promised you 4 things;

1) I will always be there for you.

2) I will never make love to you the “sex” way that hurt your innocence, only the melting union way.

3) I will keep writing and will never stop.

And now I make a fourth one;

4) I will not get upset, hurt or bitter when we talk about “J” again. I don’t think I even  have the right anymore.

 

But now I think the last promise needs tweaking, because the problem wasn’t about one person only, it was about me sinking into my feelings, blinded and deaf can’t hear you crying for my help and can’t see you weeping, so today that promise get the right tweaking;

4) I promise you true love; Jesus love, communication and most importantly understanding all the way.

Because without this last promise I will not be able to fulfill my first one … I will not be able to be your “ring buoy” … Because I know that a time will come soon, may be in few days when you will meet your loved one, may be you will receive another blow or crash, may be the storm will rise up and walls will tumble and earth will grumble and at this moment you will need an intimate friend who you can cry on his shoulder, scream and shout your pain, anger and frustration, and he should not be focused on his feelings he should be there for you … And I am afraid that my man’s strength would fail me then, but I trust in the Lord who walked so far with me will deliver HIS strength that can stand the storm, HE has always been faithful and never failed me once … Now I understand that you don’t need a lover, you need a passionate loving friend who loves you as Jesus did, you need an intimate friend ..!!